While I can’t claim to have experienced the war our soldiers
experienced, the U.S. war in Vietnam had a profound and painful impact on my
life. I grew up in the shadow of the
glorified role played by the United States in World War II. I embraced that role and participated in
Memorial Day marches and ceremonies as a young Boy Scout.
When I
first attended Oberlin College as a freshman in 1964-65, I encountered a campus
highly politicized in the aftermath of Mississippi Freedom Summer. I joined in idealistic campus activism. However, in February, 1965, when the United
States announced that it had begun bombing North Vietnam, I encountered a very
small group of dark-clad protesters against the war at Oberlin’s traditional
protest site, the Memorial Arch. My
instinctive reaction was: who were these few people who felt they knew more than
the State Department about Southeast Asia?
I acted on that instinct by standing as a counter-protester with a sign
that read “Here’s one Young Democrat who supports the Johnson Administration.”
Like most Americans I hadn’t yet
encountered anything that might contradict my naiveté, but I began to listen to
classmates who read material I hadn’t been exposed to; I began to pay closer
attention to the Vietnam “crisis” the media were now calling a “war.” Before long, I had become a skeptic, a
“dove,” who believed U.S. intentions were good in the struggle with the
Communist Soviet Union but had been misapplied in a Vietnam struggle where at
best our nation’s efforts seemed counterproductive.
It wasn’t much longer before I had
learned enough about the war to realize that the stated “intentions” were a
cover for an immoral assault on the nation and peoples of Vietnam (and, soon,
Laos and Cambodia). As my learning
deepened about the war, it had three effects on me. One was that it shattered my earlier belief
in my nation’s “noble” foreign policy; it shattered the world I had grown up in
and left me feeling that my country now viewed me as “anti-American.” This was and is an enduring, painful part of
my coming of age –like learning some terrible dark secret about a family member
you have loved and looked up to as a child.